Got some really weird shit goin' through my mind right now... Gotta find my old self back.
It is horrifying how one can change when he is at a different place without family, old friends and the things and habits he had in the past.
What you do defines you, and if you are doing nothing, you are nothing more than a piece of meat wandering around and moving with no reason at all. Pathetic.
Gotta stay positive.
It seems i have to make once more, an integral part of myself, the knowledge of the fact that death is an unfortunate (or fortunate) inevitability, and this gives me a reason. A reason to live. A reason to wake up every morning, go to work, party, meet people and be open to every possibility imaginable.
This is what i am looking for. Reason.
It is difficult finding reason in a world so fundamentally meaningless.
And so reason following meaning must both be created.
Sadly though, it seems that time is not on my side.
Even worse it is becoming harder and harder to realise that time goes away all the time and i don't always appreciate this valuable commodity.
It is like when you hear your train leaving.
You run to make it on board only when it is ready to leave. And then you miss it.
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