Inspiring and scary..

                                                             

 

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People have been telling me i've dissapeared completely these days. It's not that i don't like people, actually i enjoy hanging out with friends a lot. These days though seem to be an exception since i've devoted myself to achieve some goals, and i'm trying my best to avoid distractions, sometimes going as far as not picking up the phone when friends call me. I wish i did not own a phone sometimes. For so many reasons most of which must surely seem paranoid to the vast majority of people. It is an extreme measure i know, but true friends will understand.

I've been having strange sleep patterns lately. Slept at 2 am last night, and woke up at 5 am. Same thing almost every night for 2 weeks now, i sleep 3-4 hours dailly and it's getting annoying. It's probably the fear and joy at the same time, of finally leaving this country for good. I have to prepare more. Study. Train more. Study more. Train again.

I wonder what awaits me tommorow.
But there's no fate but what you make, as Sarah Connor said
and what awaits me is mostly that which i have made it to be.
Inspiring and scary at the same time, i love it!