Don't worry. Everything's going to be allright. If you try hard enough, that is. Nothing in life is going to work your own way unless YOU make it. Well if nothing goes well for you, either you're a miserable failure, a waste of time and space for other people and for the world in general, or you're a victim of really really bad circumstances...
Well I don't really believe the second one, I believe (as Sartre already said) freedom is what you do with what's been done to you.
In any case the exit is there, waiting for you any time, creeping on the darkest corners of your complex thoughts, waiting for the right moment to stand up and shout : "YOU'RE A FAILURE, JUST DIE, YOU'RE NOT WORTH ANYTHING AND YOU'RE BETTER OFF DEAD!"
Then you think of your girlfriend, your family, your friends, your willingness to try and make your world a little bit better, and you smack that little asshole in the face and send him back where he belongs... But there's no guarrantee he won't return someday...
Diffused. That's the most accurate word that can describe myself as i have been in the past 2 months.
Unstable and out of focus. Nowhere near the Ubermensch i've aspired to become someday.
